Yes, I do have friends ... lots of them

Well ... to all my friends out there, I am sorry for thinking that you guys had already forgotten me. I am such a jerk. The real fact is, I do have friends afterall. They are willing to stretch out their hands when I need them.

To those who called me up during my first day in UUM just to check whether I was ok, I treasure you guys, and I cried when you asked me "there ok or not".

To those who never fail to remember my birthday, I cherish you.

To those who give me a ride on their cars/motors, I appreciate you.

To those who never fail to lend me his helping hands, I value you.

To those who provide me support and shoulders when I am facing tough times, I am grateful to have you as my friends.

I love you all, and friends forever

Do I have friends?

I like to play games, and chatting in MSN. But last night, while I was in MSN, something hit me hard. I realised that actually I do not have much friends, I mean real good friends who I can chat anything with. Well, talking craps with anyone works well for me, but when I want to share my feeling, express my happiness and sadness, there are only a few of them. These so called good friends are less than 10. With us moving into working world, and leaving behind schooling, I can say that I actually lost contact with 95% of my classmates.
Well .. I am not the type of girl who is pretty and outstanding, but all the while I thought that I am good at making friends, as I have lots of friends from different backgrounds and age. When I was in MSN last night, about 9 or 10 friends were online, but I didn't have the heart to chat with them. I asked myself why, and the only answer I have is, beside talking craps, what else you can chat with them? Then one of my friends, he came online, and we started to chat for awhile, then he introduced me to read a book (online book reading), and guess what, he started to read the book and told me "we chat next time". At that very moment I felt hurt, cuz I thought that since we seldom chat with each other, and we have the chance to meet online, we should spend the time chatting, but he chose to spend the rest of the time reading a book, a book where he can read anytime he wants... WTH...
But after gave it a second thought, well ... I know that its not his fault anyway. It is just that everyone has different mindsets and everyone weight things differently. What is important to me might not be important to him, and vice versa. I felt much better, and I lost the mood to chat anymore .. To the guy who ignored me last night, you better not MSNing me cuz I will revenge...

Future

I don't have a car. Actually I was thinking of buying a car last year, as it is hard for me to go to work and get back to home after work without any transport. But due to some reasons, I dropped it.
Too bad that there is no public transportation which will pass through my company. If yes, then definitely I will take it.

Buying a car means need to fork out additional $$$, paying loan monthly and also for the petrol and maintenance fees. I saved enough to pay for the deposit.
But since a few weeks or months back, I have been thinking of going to Singapore to work in order to earn more $$.
Since I am still single and unattached and no commitment, why don't I go to SG for a year or 2 and work there?

But 2 weeks ago, my sister pointed out that I need to buy a car. So we went to take a look at Myvi last weekend, and one Myvi needs RM 50K. This is ok, as this is within my budget. But one thing is, if I am going to buy a car right now, which means that I am not able to go to SG anymore. My borne will completed in Feb'09, which mean I still have 5 months to go. Then after that I will only thinking of whether I want to continue with my current job, or find other jobs or going to SG. What should I do? Buy a car or don't buy first? Go to SG or Stay in Penang? Well, I am going to SG during Raya, and if I really 'click' with SG, then I think I will probably going over to SG. And I know that my mom doesn't want me to go there to work.

I don't know how is my future, but I chose this career path, so I guess I will stick with it for now, as its hard for me to back to IT path anymore .. sigh ...

Bye bye to Darren

Today is Darren's last day being my teammate, being one of my team members and since I can get along with him so well, I should spend more time chatting with him today, but due to workload and wanting to go off early, I didn't chat with him much, except for squeezing him for settling issues for me before he left. Lolz .. I admit that I am pretty good at using people .. sorry for this

Something funny in here is that I went to his farewell dinner for 3 times, of course with different groups of people, so you can see that everyone is so eager to have farewell lunch/dinner with him, and the most obvious one is definitely me, cuz I went to his farewell for 3 times!!!

2 days ago, 5 of us (Darren, Selly, Agnes, Amy and me) went to Tambun to eat, it was a rainy day, and we can't find the restaurant that is being introduced by friends, so we just simply went to a restaurant, and I can't even remember the name. After dinner, we went to Hadgen Daz in Auto City. This was the first time eating Hadgen Daz ice cream, and the best thing is ... I do not have to pay for it.

It is so natural what 5 of us can chat very well like old friends despite the fact that we are suppliers and customers in fact and we only know each other for less than 1.5 years.

Guys, that night is memorable and I will remember it always

Although we really don't want you to leave, but we still wishyou all the best, we will miss ya!

Darren & Agnes

Selly & me & Amy & Agnes

The ice cream!!!

I love you Vic, I love you too Tay

Although I have 2 sons for almost 3 years now ... but we always talk crap over the MSN, not really go deeper into ourselves, our own lives ... until one day, Taylor told me about him and his girlfriend, and until one day Victor invited me to view his webcam and there he sat in front of the webcam, playing guitar and sang for me for hours.

Then I just realised that how fortunate I am to know them, to have them as my sons. They are adult now, and I can visit Venezuela anytime I want, there will be someone there to bring me around, someone there to care for my expenses ... After all, what are sons for if not for me to bully them? Lolz

A few days ago, Vic is here again, showing me his webcam, and this time, he plays organ + guitar + flute ... and I was like WOW .. what the heck .. my son is multi talented and I just got to know about this. He composes a new song, and let me hear it ... I told him "If you recorded this and send to me, I will make it my ringtone". Despite of his daily chores, he spent time and recorded the song and send it to me.

I am so touched Vic, this will be my cellphone's ringtone until you compose me another better song. I love you, and I am proud to have you as my son ...

On the other hand, Although Vic gave me suprise ... Tay gave me another big bomb as well ...

Just 5 min ago, I just knew that Taylor is not his real name. .. His real name is Orlando xxxxxx and his name is real long, but I can't find the word "Taylor" within his name.

Omg, am I a bad mommy or they are bad sons cuz they don't share their 'secrets' with me??

But no doubt that Tay is a hardworking boy, who wants to earn more $$ for better future.
I know you are busy son, but you have to take care of yourself, and your girlfriend, and most importantly, don't forget that you have a mommy waiting for you to bear all her expenses during her trip to VE...

I love both of you .. and I wish that you will be my sons forever!!!

Taylor

Victor

I am back.. at least I think so ..

The reason I created this blog last time, cuz I want to share my feeling in here, but eventually I ended up neglecting this blog for months after 2 entries of mine...
The reason? LAZY .... It is not a good reason, but it is a good reason to me.

Yeah, I am lazy, I don't have time for writing a blog, I rather spend my time sleeping or playing games, who cares ... if you care .. so what .. this is my blog and I have the right to keep my blog updated or not..

But just now, I read my friend's blog, she inspired me to start updating my blog again... yeah, maybe a guy reads my blog by some chance, and stick to me ... who knows ... lol .. here I am day dreaming again .. so what?

Pretty busy with work currently, working in this company of mine is very stressful, not becuz of the work itself, but becuz of the workload that assigned by my sup and lead. Although I am going to KL this Merdeka day, but until now, I don't even make any preparation yet, going out to dinner with friend tomorrow night and the day after tomorrow, it doesn't even give me any happy feeling at all ... this job is killing me softly with its stress .. but I am glad that I enjoyed my dinner with my friends last weekends ...

Maybe I should just learn to relax and not to be so responsible afterall .. just to have my life back. Life is short, we should live life like there will be no tomorrow. I know and I understand the theory, but its just hard to do so ... Once I was a happy-go-lucky girl, but now may be I am laughing outside, but crying inside .. .do you feel me ... where is your helping hand then

Working environment is getting worse

It is 8PM and I am still at my office, well .. working + chatting + checking emails...

Employee turnover rate is so high in here that I heard that there are another 5persons who same position with me already tendered resignation letters. 1 of my production folks is leaving too.

People comes and leave, but I am still here. The day I tender my resignation letter will be the most happiest moment in my life in this company I guess.

There is another thing that makes me feel that this company is not suitable for me.

Last week, about 5pm, my manager asking a boy to take a pen and paper and jot down the names of peoples who went back already... When I was told about this, the first thing that came into my mind is .. luckily I went back after 6 that day, and 2nd thing is ... why I have this kind of thinking? I am still being borne ok? So even if she doesn't like me going back earlier, she still can do nothing to me. No harm .. and I don't care anymore about going back early and being caught by her ... lolz

If you give me lots of jobs, I can cope with it, but if I finish my job, why can't I go back on time?