No more interested

Time really changed me ... I am not the same person now. Although I really wanna continue this .. but whenever I tried, I just feel that I don't have the mood to continue. Conflict between my mind and my action? Well maybe. Or can I just say that I can change my mind within 1 sec? But I know the real reason behind why I lost interest in it. It is purely because there is no spike, and I feel bored. You know, Sagittarrians love adventure, and how you expect me to be in still mode most of the time? I like to talk fast, walk fast, eat fast and straight to the point, and somehow dramatic and too much expressions just kill my mood ...

Struggled ... still truggling ....

Many things happened in 2months ... from a normal worker to overload to work till die.

Things gone from bad to worse at work, with stupid transfer where I have been taking care parts from another group, with the profit center goes to that group, but I am doing all the procuring, and pull in? When the supply are in good shape, is anyone there to thank me? When there is supply issue, will they just leave me alone and let me work out the supply line, instead of everyone keeps on coming to me asking the same question at different time?

Can all the stupid shortages and NPI don't come at once? Can you all just let me breathe? I am breathless .... Human will die if he is not breathing for minutes .... I am breathless from the moment I step into the office on feb 17 till .... omg there is no fullstop here ... I am still struggling after 2months. What a stupid moron idiot me ...

Why I need to work until late hours, need to work during weekends? Can't I just leave this stupid responsibilities alone and just enjoy my work? Why I want to be different, why can't just i follow the footsteps of the predecessor? Why I want to be something else from her? What is running through my mind? Do I think that I am actually capable? Do I think that being me right now is call good? Will they think that I am actually stupid? Will they know what is running on my mind when I took most of the job? Will they know what is my actual thought? Won't they know that it is hard for me to become what I need to become today? Shouldn't they suppose to understand that I am overloaded? Shouldn't they suppose to understand my situation right now? Aren't us in the same team?

The one that I was looking high at actually disappoint me. The one that disappointed me previously make me take another good look at her. The one that always stay unshine remains unshine. When only you can steal the spotlight and impress me? The new comer, whether you are a sun or you are a moon, just don't let me down. You are capable according to others, just don't make me laugh at others poor judgement.

Next week is going to be huh-hah-huh-hah week. I can promise you that there is going to be a big changes, but what is the changes now, I can't tell, as I haven't plan yet. But I promise you, I will try my best. After all, you all still got me as backup.

Why I am so stupid? Is it worth to spend another year in hell, in return of 1week in heaven? . Why there is no tree for me to hang on to when I am falling to dead?

Feb 17th - Tomorrow new you, tomorrow new me

Is today is the day to remember? Nope, I don't think so. I am not that sad but I am not happy by the way. Everything will be different starting tomorrow ... wish me all the best, I seriously need blessing ...

To those waiting to laugh at me at my error, save it cuz you won't have the chance to laugh.
To those who thinks that I am unable to make it, go to hell.
To those who feels happy for me, thank you guys, please keep blessing me.
To her who thinks that I got the benefit cuz of you, screw you, you think I like this myself?

It just that you caught us unaware, and we know that all the while you have been trying to flee, and you know we are trying so too. It just that you are earlier than us. The sky is gray with you around. Will the sky continues to be grayish or we will be having clear sky? I have no idea myself. But I believe this "where there is a will, there is a way"

Arrrgghhhhhh ... I just need tons of luck ...

Hair cut after 1year

When was my last hair cut? Yeah in Jan 2009. My mom keeps nagging how messy is my hair, how long is my hair, why I was so lazy to go to cut my hair. I want to make it clear in here. I am not lazy or like my messy hair, it is just I do not feel the urge and need to cut my hair. That's all. All I was thinking was, it is going to be new year soon, just wait and do my hair that time. Lolz ... then one of my colleagues sister said something like ... why ur hair so geli .. haha ... she is cute and so straightforward.

Ok ok, I promised her last Jan that I am going to look for her if I wanna do my hair. So you see, she is pushing me. I wanna do hair straightening in end of Jan, she said do it in earlier of Jan better. ok ok so I went to her bf newly open hair saloon last Sat.

Spent 4 hours there and cost me RM168, my hair become shorter, straighter and got a fringe. Everyone saying this hairstyle suits me alot ... I like this new hairstyle, hope this hair straightening can last for months, not just a week like the one I did last year.

RM 100 for 1 week. RM 168 for 1.68 weeks? No please

Last post = Oct 19???

Lol .. omg .. It has been 3 months since my last post. No wonder someone wanna delete my blog's link from his page ... How dare you lolz. Ok ok I know I have no reason to scold you. I have my reasons .... Well ... I was busy? Harvesting and stealing plants and killing others are more addicting? It is at first, but now I am bored with FaceBook.

So I started to find something else to do... What about formatting my notebook? Yeah, it is a good idea. Haven't format it for 3years I guess. Time to clear my old unwanted stuff and get rid of the trojans and virus. Lol, I know they exist all the time, but too lazy to scan for virus. It makes my notebook becomes slower, which I hate. So, I just let them survive for some time.

Seriously I do not know what to write in here, after gone for weeks. I got a lot of things to write, but too many things in one post spoils the post .. hehe .. So I will just have some warm up and continue talking crap.

Basically, many things happened since Oct. From work to personal stuff. Mostly about work where it took most of my time and energy and make me don't have mood to hang out with friends; plus I have a friend who doesn't have time for me in weekends, he only remember of his basketball games and gf in weekends. So how to hang out with friends? lolz

In case you are interested to know, here's the summary:

1) one buyer left, my team only got new replacement buyer after 2months she left - SHIT
2) my leader when for vacation for 2weeks when we are short-handed, we need to back her up - SHIT
3) new buyer came in end of Nov, I got to handle my old parts + new parts + slowing passing down some of my parts to new buyer + guiding her - SHIT
4) become an NPI buyer where there is no transition at all from my leader - SHIT
5) forcing us go for exam, we passed the exam, going for 2nd phone interview, passed that, got the chance to go to US for 1 week training, she said we (1 of my teammates and I got that) can't go to training together, cuz if we go together, our team will be shorthanded, totally a big bucket of shit, we were shorthanded when she went for vacation 2weeks last time. - SHIT
6) went to renew my passport, took about 4 hours in total, quite fast compares to someone lolz
7) plan and survey hard for our trip to HK, but God knows whether we are able to go there or we have to cancel our trip ... I hope we do not have to cancel our trips.
8) where is this Lim Wan Ching? Wanna to locate her and buy her a drink + discussing our trip also susah ... need to postpone again and again from Oct till now ... sigh ...

Is it cancer?

2 weeks ago, a friend of mine told me that he has been to hospital and taking pills. Upon asking, he said he need to undergo some sort of surgery, well might be a few of them. He told me the date and time of his operation, but decline to elaborate further on what kind of surgery it is, and what he is facing.

Well, I respect him and could do nothing except feel sad for him, and wish him good luck. But I am so curious. What he is facing? "It is a long walk" ... what kind of illness that you are facing? You have been acting like it is not a big deal. You joke, you laugh as always, which scares me. Are you trying to act happy in front of your family and friends? Or you feel that I am not a good friend of you and you just can't share that with me? Well, the fact is, even if you tell me, I can do nothing for you except feel sad. Maybe this is why you choose to keep quiet and suffer yourself.

You said that you will tell me oneday perhaps. I pray for you to be well again, and you will tell me that you won the battle.

God bless you, Garry

Time flies ... or I am getting lazier?

I haven't visited any blog of TEH, WC and Lavender and of cuz my own blog for almost 2months now? It really weird ... cuz I thought that I only updated my blog few weeks back with the super long post? haha ... Anyway ... I am back tonight ..

TEH, sorry that I didnt read ur posts and i just read it few days back ... haha .. You almost lost your most faithful reader lolz ...

I just login to write something in here ... anything I mean, as I do not have any idea what to write in here. Just the urge to at least write something, or else ppl might think that I went to sell salted egg haha. Guess that I am so obsessed with Facebook that I don't have time for anything else ...

Well .. I will remember to come back visiting my page more often and to brat about anything. Blog is another medium used for showing off. If not, what for I am asking my friends to read my blog? Lol ...