Monday, September 15, 2008

Do I have friends?

I like to play games, and chatting in MSN. But last night, while I was in MSN, something hit me hard. I realised that actually I do not have much friends, I mean real good friends who I can chat anything with. Well, talking craps with anyone works well for me, but when I want to share my feeling, express my happiness and sadness, there are only a few of them. These so called good friends are less than 10. With us moving into working world, and leaving behind schooling, I can say that I actually lost contact with 95% of my classmates.
Well .. I am not the type of girl who is pretty and outstanding, but all the while I thought that I am good at making friends, as I have lots of friends from different backgrounds and age. When I was in MSN last night, about 9 or 10 friends were online, but I didn't have the heart to chat with them. I asked myself why, and the only answer I have is, beside talking craps, what else you can chat with them? Then one of my friends, he came online, and we started to chat for awhile, then he introduced me to read a book (online book reading), and guess what, he started to read the book and told me "we chat next time". At that very moment I felt hurt, cuz I thought that since we seldom chat with each other, and we have the chance to meet online, we should spend the time chatting, but he chose to spend the rest of the time reading a book, a book where he can read anytime he wants... WTH...
But after gave it a second thought, well ... I know that its not his fault anyway. It is just that everyone has different mindsets and everyone weight things differently. What is important to me might not be important to him, and vice versa. I felt much better, and I lost the mood to chat anymore .. To the guy who ignored me last night, you better not MSNing me cuz I will revenge...

2 comments:

(e+ho)ng said...

When you were taking crap in the toilet, sleeping soundly in the ungodly hours, there might be someone out there who wished you would call them.

But you did not. Instead, you take your time crapping & sleeping.

It is the same the other way around. There are times when something are much more / less important to you & to someone else.

CarinaSing said...

Yeah maybe you are right ...