Thursday, December 4, 2008

No more StarWalk for me ... sigh

Another 10days, there will be this StarWalk 2008 held in PISA. I am one of the contestants .. I really thought I am ... but with the stupid bomb shell from my HR .... I won't be joining this event anymore.

Well, on one particular day, while having lunch with my colleagues,we talked about StarWalk, and my HR is asking those who are interested to join this to submit the form to them, and my company will sponsor 150ppl on first come first serve basis. So we filled up the form and pass to HR. After the deadline, we heard nothing back from HR. So we are in.

We started to discuss on when to start practising, and for those who know me well enough, you will know that I walk more than I run hahaha. Back in 2 years, I walked from Jubilee to LeapFrog, the distance is about 5km, in an hour. So with this StarWalk, which requires contestants to walk 10km within 2 hours, it is as easy as ABC to me.

But 2days ago, HR sent an email, listing down those who representing Jabil to join this event, and BOM... my name is not in the list, so do my friends. This is totally unacceptable. So we phoned and dropped email to the HR girl, and the reply we got is "sorry, your name exceed the first come first serve 170ppl, so you are not eligible for this" WTF ... how can HR being so irresponsibile? Ok, I know I am not among the 170ppl, so what? So does it mean that I am not eligible to join this event although I am willing to pay RM12 myself? This stupid HR girl just dropped our forms without even notifying us. If by the time when we submit the form, we had been informed that we need to pay for ourselves instead of joining free, we still can accept it. But with this stupid HR, and I know, with all the pressure and unhappy stuff at work, I was mad at this and sent a simple email to this girl, but I got no reply from her after 5pm. So I dropped her another email, and CCing to her manager. All I want is an explanation, I am sure that there are others who didn't get the chance to join as well, but they just didn't voice it out. Let me be the hero in here. How can HR being so irresponsible? This is common sense that they need to notify us up front before the deadline that we are not selected, and if we still want to join, we need to fork out $$. Is this so hard?

So, today, we received an email from them, apologizing for this, and in the email, they specificly mentioned that 5 of HR guys drew up and let us have their seats, and it is non-competition, which mean that if we completed the 10km walk, there will be no cert and not eligible for lucky draw. I lost my mood in here now, and do not think of joining this again this year. I rejected the offer of course. The girl screwed up and she drags along 4 other HR guys. And the thing that I hate the most is, she not even apologize. It is her senior who replying my email. Haha, with me escalating her, I guess she will remember me forever ...

But I feel very sad that I am not able to join this this year. She let me feel high and the next moment pull me back to the ground. Fuck her.

Monday, December 1, 2008

¡Feliz cumpleaños!

Today is 1st of Dec, today is my birthday. but too bad that today is Monday too, and I don't know why I feel down today. Maybe I do not get the birthday wish from someone that I thought will remember it? Maybe yes.

Today I turned 25. Well, how many 25 years I still have? Do I have car? No. Do I have house? No. Do I have money? No. Do I have boyfriend? No. But I have something. I have debt. When I only will be able to clear all the stupid debt? Should study harder in UUM last time. Come'on, I am smart, and I have confident that I can grad as 1st class degree holder, if not becuz of someone who taught me how to calculate my PMS and told me that no way for me to get first class honor. He indirectly shaped me into who I am today. Haha, just joking.

Back to my birhtday. This year, i got many $$ and gifts, and it turns out that this is not I really want actually. Hello, is there something wrong with me? I am materialistic ok? Just give me $$ and I will be happy for days. And guess what, guess I change into someone who dislikes $$. I am much more mature now? Haha, drop this, as I am always mature. So? I guess I am much more greedy now. I want to have lots of $$ without even have to work ... haha ... oh please make my wish come true .... By the way, I bought a lottery ticket last weekend, just wish me luck

Lastly, to all my friends who remember my birthday, thanks alot for your smses and wishes. To those who never even bother to remember my birthday, and then only wanted to wish me later, just save it for yourself. I don't mind. Cuz the first SMS I received is from the one I admire last time .. haha

Friday, November 14, 2008

Singapore

Well ... Froggie and I went to Singapore during Raya, and I have always wanted to write a post about our trips, but when I wanted to do so, I can't access to internet; and when I finally have internet access, the Singapore trip mood is over ... lol
Singapore trip is a past and already in my 'archive' folder in my memory, there is hard for me to dig it up again. Well, bottom line is I enjoyed the trip, and I would like to thanks those who amended their schedule to meet up with us, and thank those who treated us lunch/dinner.

Singapore is really a nice place to be. One of the things I love about Singapore is it's MRT. Our LRT is so poor that I don't even have the mood to take it, but with the MRT, it catches my heart, and with the whole city linked, it is easy for travellers to explore Singapore by themselves. Maybe Malaysia has a bad place in my heart, where I always feel that some countries are much more better than Malaysia, and deep in my heart I know that its true.. haha ..

One thing that make me feel unbelievable is that, our bus left Penang at 10.15pm, and we only reached SG the next morning at 10am. Haha .. at first I thought we can reached there at 7 in the morning, and then can meet up with my friend and having breakfast with him. But luckily that I say no to him earlier, if not he is going to be mad at me. The bus dropped us at Golden Mile Complex, and Fattymeng came an hour later. First time saw him in real person, he looks very mature for 17 yo guys, and he doesn't look friendly at all. I feel weird talking to him in person compare to chatting with him in MSN. He led us to the nearest MRT station, and brought us to Serangoon MRT. From there, Fattymeng say byebye to us, and Chai took over his job. She brought us back to her home. After bath, Froggie and I went to Vivo City, met up with AC, SynMyn and Uncle Lim. Took our lunch and went to Sentosa of course.
Sentosa is big, and but the shows and games are normal compares to what I played and watched in theme parks in Australia. The Song of the sea, the show is nice with the water, fire, fireworks and lights, but the storyline is very lousy. But I still enjoyed it.

2nd day, we woke up at 10am, pretty late for travellers lolz ... Met up my suppliers at ChinaTown and having lunch with them. Then met up with Fattymeng. Take a duck tour (SGD 33) around Singapore. Well it is actually not worth it, as we had a better view when we explored SG ourselves on feet. Then we off to Bugis market at night. The shirts are cheap, but the souvenirs are expansive. Being the naive tourists... we saw it sell 3 set of keychain with SGD10, we straight away bought it, as we scare that later we won't have the chance to buy souvenirs anymore. We bought some other items.

3rd day, woke up bout the same time, went to ChinaTown againg and bought 'bak kua' and met up with my suppliers again. Wanted to treat them lunch back, but they treated us again. The food in the food court Tiang Bahru is very nice. Then we headed back to ChinaTown, met up with Penny and we explored the stalls there. The souvenirs in ChinaTown are much more cheaper than in Bugis Street. we saw the keychain that we bought ... in ChinaTown, 5sets cost only SGD10. If we know that earlier, we won't bought it at Bugis street there. The weather is so hot on that day and Froggie and I gave up halfway. We tried the ice-cream which being recommended by Chai. Then Penny went to fetch her husband, so Froggie and I continue our own exploration. We took MRT to City Hall, cuz we wanted to go to Merlion there and also took picture of Esplanade. In the duck tour, we only can see those from far. We took the wrong route, and we ended up inside Esplanade, the car park there. Then we headed back to where we start, and finally we saw Esplanade. Beside Esplanade is the Merlion. Exploring SG on our own and found the status of Merlion really bring us satisfaction. Then we headed to Geylang for dinner. We met up with AC, Uncle Lim, Siao Noi, Sze Hua, Fattymeng and his friend and ate crab at 'No Signboard'. Eight persons ate SGD200, and thanks to AC, Uncle Lim, Siao Noi and Sze Hua for treating us. Then we took MRT, stopped by Clarke Quay. The scene is very pretty at nice.

4th day, cancelled my breakfast date with ZL, as both of us cant make it. After bath, we and Chai headed to AC's house. Meet up with AC, Siao Noi, Sze Hua, Uncle Lim, and a friend there. After lunch, we manged to grab a chance to shop inside the shopping centre. To my disbelieve, the Giordano t-shirt only cost SGD5 each. I bought one, and now I feel regret lol .. that t-shirt is for EuJin. Then stopped by other shops and we bought shirts. Then we headed to Science Center. It is nice, and we paid SGD 26 (if I am not mistaken) for admission to the center and also to the snowworld. Ate dinner at McD, then AC accompany us over to Larkin, Johor. She went back to her house, and we took our night bus back to Penang.
Reached Penang bout 6am.

SG is a real nice place to visit, and I reckon it to my mom. Infact, I am thinking of visiting SG again with my mom real soon. Just hope that I can get a cheap hotel.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Life is meaningless

Recently, I don't know why I have so much things to do at work, and time is not enough for me. And one thing is, I am unlucky with quality issues happens to my commodities every week, and it has given me additional jobs to do. Yes, I learnt from the issues, but too much issues happening at one time means killing me.

I don't want to comment more on my job, as it will be killing my mood for the whole night.
Today is Thursday and it is raining now, and I am in my previous room, connected to internet connection, and chatting with friends online. I will move to Pekaka this Sat, and god ... I have so much things to take with me ... man, I will definitely need to make more trips fourth and back, and I can imagine how mad my sis will be that time. Haha ...

I chat with one of my friends, and he invited me to talk to him through mic in MSN ... I know most of people who knows me will think that I am not shy, but in fact I am shy, cuz my housemate is in the same room with in, therefore I do not dare to speak with mic with my friend over the MSN. When when I finally collected my courage, he ended the call with me. But he reconnect again, and this time I seized the oppurtunity to chat with him through mic, but he cant hear me, and it ends up that my mic is not working afterall
Lesson to learn, don't feel scare to do something, as it might turn up that it is just a simple thing, and nothing is 100% perfect

Right now, I am just going to work, coming back from work, reading book or watching series and go to sleep. There is nothing much to do ... not much activity going for me now.
I am waiting for holiday to come ... I want to rest

Friday, October 17, 2008

Finally I am moving out

Haha ... the first thing that cross my mind after my sister's bf called me last night is - the medium bedroom currently I am staying is 'haunted' in the sense that every owner will move out. It welcomes 5 owners in this year, and I will be the last one in here. After that, I won't care about who will be the next 'victim' as I am free now.

Despite the pressure at work currently, I need to spend time haunting for new housemate, but I got no success in return for this. There was a girl, who called me up to make an appointment with me last week, and I turned her down in the very last minute after I got to know that she is actually Malays. Well you can call me racist or spit on me, but I rather let the room empty for a month than finding A Malays as my new housemates, and moreover she is planning to rent the room with her bf. Turning her down, and not getting new phone calls asking about the room availability definitely making me frustrated.

But, thanks to my sister's bf in here. Last night, he called me up and telling me that his housemate is going to move out, and I straight away say Yes, booking the room first ... So starting from next month, I will be moving out from this house, and move to Taman Pekaka.
So, to those who left things with me, such as Froggie, and to those who wanted to copy series from me, don't knock on the wrong person ... lolz ...
Finally, I can have a sigh of relieve, but I still need to deal with the current landlord on this, and hope that he let me to tender the house to him by end of this month, saving me the $$ ..
This is a good news to me, cuz there will be internet access and also washing machine waiting for me there, and finally i don't have to wash clothes with my hands anymore and I don't have to borrow other wireless access.

But I really like this house, with the environment, with the public transport and with the Super Tanker in front of my block, and if not becuz of the ppl keep coming and going, I won't be moving. Blame it on those who can't stay long.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Working ....

Today is oct 16th, and I am still in the office, replying emails and keep on sighing as it is already 3 hours after my working hours, yet I am still working. All of this is due to the expedite orders from my customer. Imagine, they are pulling in 490units of orders from Dec to end of Oct/beginning of Nov. Besides the huge orders, there are a lots of smal orders keep coming in, and pulling in to earlier dates. This result with material shortages. There is one material which needs about 3700pcs, and I need to pull in the material to dock asap.

Why am I still here in this hour? Shouldn't I suppose to back in my house, eating dinner while watching movie? It is cuz of this material. We have done everything we can to expedite this. From Shanghai to Penang, the best ETA committed by forwarder is tomorrow before 2pm, but we can't accept it, and we have forwarder to terminate the flight service in KL, and change to truck mode, and the truck scheduled to dock at 7pm, but it hasn't reached yet, and I am chasing for this. Sigh ... This is the normal buyer job and responsibilities, I know about this, but this is tiring with all the parties focusing on you and your shipments. Come on ... I am sick of this.

After this shipment docks tonight, I still have other shipments to chase for. And I know that, starting from next week, pricing will my another big issue.
I didn't went to work on Tue, due to period pain and headache, but I took emergency leave instead. Reason being I have about 5days leaves which is going to due soon, and lazy to go to see doc. But, I can't just lying on the bed whole days, so I went to cyber cafe to online, and I see more and more issues. Coming back to work on Wed, I got many bombs regarding the delaying in my shipment, and now it is 7.51pm, got updated status that the truck which carrying my shipment, already at front gate ...FINALLY !!

Hope everything will go smoothly after this, and everything, including my other shipments, hope that I am able to pulling in all the materisl. hope there wil be no more shortages, hope I can go back at 4.30 everyday... lol ... many will think that this wish is funny, but if you are a buyer in this company, you will know that this is not a wish which is can be granted easily ... haha ..

I haven't go back at 4.30pm sharp for a long long time.

Enough about work, when I'm back from SG, I thought that the next blog from me will be about my trip to SG, but it turns out to be something else .. cuz I don't have the time to scan through all the pictures taken during the SG trip, and most importantly that I do not have the mood to write about the trip, I don't want the trip to sound bad.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Am I a cow? or a horse? I don't feel like I am a human after all

Die die die ... this week is really driving me crazy, from lack of sleep to pressure from work .. it almost took my breath away.

Yeah, no doubt that I had 6days of holidays last week and enjoyed myself , but it is funny when I have the thought that I 'traded' the 4days trip to Singapore with this hell week. When I back to work on Monday, I got about 250++ emails, and I thought not bad cuz 250 ++ is small case. But as when I read through the emails, I see issues, issues and more issues. *Faint*

This job is killing me, with Customer as the priority, and we have to make the impossible becomes possible. Mission impossible is always hard to achieve, and we still have to try 100%, pushing this pushing that, trying this trying that, and it is really tiring.
Another 5 months to go, it is 7months to go actually. Clock is ticking, but I feel that it is ticking slower than before. Wish all my issues can be settled by next week.
This job is no fun, where it gives me pressure and tension, but one thing I like about this jobs is... I get to know more ppl from around the world, and make friends with them. Although it is not advisable by my leader to become close to them as in her opinion, it will become harder when I want to pull in shipment or escalating them, but in my opinion, it is ok as long as we know the border between work and friendship.

Another big bomb which added to my problem is ... I need to find housemate again... Really WTF... She only been staying here for 4days when she told me that she can't suit to the room, cuz of the noise in the morning. Stupid shit ... I really give up in finding housemate now. I don't have the time and money to keep changing housemates again and again. It is really wasting time and effort. Although I really don't want to move out from my house, but IF I can find myself a new room, I will move. Or the landlord wants to increase the rental (my house contract end this month), I will move out. That's it. I've made up my mind.

Just wish everything will become ok.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Singapore .. here I come

As most of you may have known, I am going over to Singapore next week. This is the trip that always been in my mind for months, but all the while I am just saying I will go one day, but never really think about it, until Froggie says "ok, I will go with you".

We started to plan in August. At first, we face lots of problems like accommodation, transportation etc. How can we go to SG if we don't have place to stay. Staying in hotel is an option, but we just can't afford the room rate. We kept on asking friends, and got "sorry, there's no space in my house for you guys to stay" as the reply. Then Ah Chai's name came into light, I asked her about it and I was thinking of getting no as reply, but she said "ok, no problem". We got our 1st green light.

First week of Sept, we managed to buy our ticket from Penang to SG. One step towards our plan.
Our passports? Checked. Got our 3rd green light.

Then what's left is our return ticket from JB to Penang. We got bad news from TAC for 2weeks, telling us the ticket is not yet out/can't buy the ticket for us. We began to sweat, asking around for others to help us buy, and finally got a call from TAC early in 20th morning, and tickets settled!

All the problems had been solved, and we are only waiting for the moment to come, and make sure that we get our buttocks onto the bus, and we are good to go.

Thanks to TAC, who has been 'pestering' us to go to SG since last year, and buying the tickets for us.

Thanks to Ah Chai, who is so generous as she promised to let us squeeze in her room during our trips.

Thanks to FattyMeng, who turn down all the part-time jobs except for 1 (according to him), just to be our tour guide and accompany us.

Thanks to ZL, as I always disturb you during you sleeping hour, and you never say no when I asked you to help me buy bus ticket. Hope you managed to get half-day leave and meet up with me.

Beside this, special thanks to the organizers of UUM IT course gathering in Genting. If not because of you guys, guess we will never make up our mind for this trip in the first place.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Moving out

I rent a house in Penang here, and I am with this house for almost 2 years now. Since GYM moved out, I become the only 'bao zhou po' for this house, and of course I just hope that no one will move out anymore, as I am lazy to find new housemates, and I have to bear for the room rental as well if the room is left unoccupied for a month. Due to people comes people goes, I had been paying for the room rental 2 times this year, and it costs me total of RM 360.

This year itself, my house's middle room has been changing ownership for 3 times, and this 30th, it is going to welcome its new owner... that’s me ^_^ ... I really don't know whether I should laugh or cry actually.

This current housemate of mine, she just moved in 3 months back, and now she is going to leave this month. And already being numb to this situation, I told her to give me 1 month notice and I went to 7-11 to stick the 'looking for housemate' advertisement again. And lucky enough, a girl called me up and wanted to have a look at the room.

Well, an hour before she came that night, I chat with JiaLing (the other housemate of mine), talking about my plan to buy a car. Then this girl, she came and had a quick look, and then she's gone. We thought that she is not going to rent here as she just took a quick glance. But, she smsed me and told me she wants the room. Well maybe that time I am depressed, maybe I am just thinking of $$$, maybe I am already tired of searching for housemate again and again, I smsed her back and told her she can take the master room if she is interested. I am the one who occupying the master room now. And then she said OK.

So this 30th, I am going to move out from master room, and move in to middle room. No more personal bathroom and I guess no more 'borrowing' unsecured wireless connection after this month. Lolz ... Is this a smart move or the stupidest move I ever make? Well, I can't comment right now. But at least I can be sure of one thing, I can save some $$ then.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Yes, I do have friends ... lots of them

Well ... to all my friends out there, I am sorry for thinking that you guys had already forgotten me. I am such a jerk. The real fact is, I do have friends afterall. They are willing to stretch out their hands when I need them.

To those who called me up during my first day in UUM just to check whether I was ok, I treasure you guys, and I cried when you asked me "there ok or not".

To those who never fail to remember my birthday, I cherish you.

To those who give me a ride on their cars/motors, I appreciate you.

To those who never fail to lend me his helping hands, I value you.

To those who provide me support and shoulders when I am facing tough times, I am grateful to have you as my friends.

I love you all, and friends forever

Monday, September 15, 2008

Do I have friends?

I like to play games, and chatting in MSN. But last night, while I was in MSN, something hit me hard. I realised that actually I do not have much friends, I mean real good friends who I can chat anything with. Well, talking craps with anyone works well for me, but when I want to share my feeling, express my happiness and sadness, there are only a few of them. These so called good friends are less than 10. With us moving into working world, and leaving behind schooling, I can say that I actually lost contact with 95% of my classmates.
Well .. I am not the type of girl who is pretty and outstanding, but all the while I thought that I am good at making friends, as I have lots of friends from different backgrounds and age. When I was in MSN last night, about 9 or 10 friends were online, but I didn't have the heart to chat with them. I asked myself why, and the only answer I have is, beside talking craps, what else you can chat with them? Then one of my friends, he came online, and we started to chat for awhile, then he introduced me to read a book (online book reading), and guess what, he started to read the book and told me "we chat next time". At that very moment I felt hurt, cuz I thought that since we seldom chat with each other, and we have the chance to meet online, we should spend the time chatting, but he chose to spend the rest of the time reading a book, a book where he can read anytime he wants... WTH...
But after gave it a second thought, well ... I know that its not his fault anyway. It is just that everyone has different mindsets and everyone weight things differently. What is important to me might not be important to him, and vice versa. I felt much better, and I lost the mood to chat anymore .. To the guy who ignored me last night, you better not MSNing me cuz I will revenge...

Friday, September 12, 2008

Future

I don't have a car. Actually I was thinking of buying a car last year, as it is hard for me to go to work and get back to home after work without any transport. But due to some reasons, I dropped it.
Too bad that there is no public transportation which will pass through my company. If yes, then definitely I will take it.

Buying a car means need to fork out additional $$$, paying loan monthly and also for the petrol and maintenance fees. I saved enough to pay for the deposit.
But since a few weeks or months back, I have been thinking of going to Singapore to work in order to earn more $$.
Since I am still single and unattached and no commitment, why don't I go to SG for a year or 2 and work there?

But 2 weeks ago, my sister pointed out that I need to buy a car. So we went to take a look at Myvi last weekend, and one Myvi needs RM 50K. This is ok, as this is within my budget. But one thing is, if I am going to buy a car right now, which means that I am not able to go to SG anymore. My borne will completed in Feb'09, which mean I still have 5 months to go. Then after that I will only thinking of whether I want to continue with my current job, or find other jobs or going to SG. What should I do? Buy a car or don't buy first? Go to SG or Stay in Penang? Well, I am going to SG during Raya, and if I really 'click' with SG, then I think I will probably going over to SG. And I know that my mom doesn't want me to go there to work.

I don't know how is my future, but I chose this career path, so I guess I will stick with it for now, as its hard for me to back to IT path anymore .. sigh ...

Friday, August 29, 2008

Bye bye to Darren

Today is Darren's last day being my teammate, being one of my team members and since I can get along with him so well, I should spend more time chatting with him today, but due to workload and wanting to go off early, I didn't chat with him much, except for squeezing him for settling issues for me before he left. Lolz .. I admit that I am pretty good at using people .. sorry for this

Something funny in here is that I went to his farewell dinner for 3 times, of course with different groups of people, so you can see that everyone is so eager to have farewell lunch/dinner with him, and the most obvious one is definitely me, cuz I went to his farewell for 3 times!!!

2 days ago, 5 of us (Darren, Selly, Agnes, Amy and me) went to Tambun to eat, it was a rainy day, and we can't find the restaurant that is being introduced by friends, so we just simply went to a restaurant, and I can't even remember the name. After dinner, we went to Hadgen Daz in Auto City. This was the first time eating Hadgen Daz ice cream, and the best thing is ... I do not have to pay for it.

It is so natural what 5 of us can chat very well like old friends despite the fact that we are suppliers and customers in fact and we only know each other for less than 1.5 years.
Guys, that night is memorable and I will remember it always

Although we really don't want you to leave, but we still wishyou all the best, we will miss ya!



Darren & Agnes



Selly & me & Amy & Agnes



The ice cream!!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

I love you Vic, I love you too Tay

Although I have 2 sons for almost 3 years now ... but we always talk crap over the MSN, not really go deeper into ourselves, our own lives ... until one day, Taylor told me about him and his girlfriend, and until one day Victor invited me to view his webcam and there he sat in front of the webcam, playing guitar and sang for me for hours.

Then I just realised that how fortunate I am to know them, to have them as my sons. They are adult now, and I can visit Venezuela anytime I want, there will be someone there to bring me around, someone there to care for my expenses ... After all, what are sons for if not for me to bully them? Lolz
A few days ago, Vic is here again, showing me his webcam, and this time, he plays organ + guitar + flute ... and I was like WOW .. what the heck .. my son is multi talented and I just got to know about this. He composes a new song, and let me hear it ... I told him "If you recorded this and send to me, I will make it my ringtone". Despite of his daily chores, he spent time and recorded the song and send it to me.

I am so touched Vic, this will be my cellphone's ringtone until you compose me another better song. I love you, and I am proud to have you as my son ...

On the other hand, Although Vic gave me suprise ... Tay gave me another big bomb as well ...
Just 5 min ago, I just knew that Taylor is not his real name. .. His real name is Orlando xxxxxx and his name is real long, but I can't find the word "Taylor" within his name.
Omg, am I a bad mommy or they are bad sons cuz they don't share their 'secrets' with me??
But no doubt that Tay is a hardworking boy, who wants to earn more $$ for better future.
I know you are busy son, but you have to take care of yourself, and your girlfriend, and most importantly, don't forget that you have a mommy waiting for you to bear all her expenses during her trip to VE...
I love both of you .. and I wish that you will be my sons forever!!!


Taylor



Victor

Monday, August 25, 2008

I am back.. at least I think so ..

The reason I created this blog last time, cuz I want to share my feeling in here, but eventually I ended up neglecting this blog for months after 2 entries of mine...
The reason? LAZY .... It is not a good reason, but it is a good reason to me.

Yeah, I am lazy, I don't have time for writing a blog, I rather spend my time sleeping or playing games, who cares ... if you care .. so what .. this is my blog and I have the right to keep my blog updated or not..

But just now, I read my friend's blog, she inspired me to start updating my blog again... yeah, maybe a guy reads my blog by some chance, and stick to me ... who knows ... lol .. here I am day dreaming again .. so what?

Pretty busy with work currently, working in this company of mine is very stressful, not becuz of the work itself, but becuz of the workload that assigned by my sup and lead. Although I am going to KL this Merdeka day, but until now, I don't even make any preparation yet, going out to dinner with friend tomorrow night and the day after tomorrow, it doesn't even give me any happy feeling at all ... this job is killing me softly with its stress .. but I am glad that I enjoyed my dinner with my friends last weekends ...

Maybe I should just learn to relax and not to be so responsible afterall .. just to have my life back. Life is short, we should live life like there will be no tomorrow. I know and I understand the theory, but its just hard to do so ... Once I was a happy-go-lucky girl, but now may be I am laughing outside, but crying inside .. .do you feel me ... where is your helping hand then

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Working environment is getting worse

It is 8PM and I am still at my office, well .. working + chatting + checking emails...

Employee turnover rate is so high in here that I heard that there are another 5persons who same position with me already tendered resignation letters. 1 of my production folks is leaving too.

People comes and leave, but I am still here. The day I tender my resignation letter will be the most happiest moment in my life in this company I guess.

There is another thing that makes me feel that this company is not suitable for me.

Last week, about 5pm, my manager asking a boy to take a pen and paper and jot down the names of peoples who went back already... When I was told about this, the first thing that came into my mind is .. luckily I went back after 6 that day, and 2nd thing is ... why I have this kind of thinking? I am still being borne ok? So even if she doesn't like me going back earlier, she still can do nothing to me. No harm .. and I don't care anymore about going back early and being caught by her ... lolz

If you give me lots of jobs, I can cope with it, but if I finish my job, why can't I go back on time?

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Cigarette Lighter Love Song

Recently, I exchanged songs with a new friend from Singapore. He gave me songs by Butch Walker (http://www.butchwalker.com/)
I never heard his name or hear his songs before, and this means first bad impression, and all I wanna do that time is to outstand this friend of mine, of course by comparing whose has the nicer songs. I told him that the songs are not nice, and I don’t understand why he likes them so much.
But after I listened to them for several times, they seem not bad at all, indeed his songs are really nice.
Right now, I am madly in love with his songs, listening to his song everyday after work, memorizing the lyrics and of course try to be another Butch Walker.
I would like to thank my Singapore friend for sharing good songs with me.
And I would like to share one of his songs in here, its called Cigarette Lighter Love Song.

Cigarette Lighter Love Song
I know you're not asleep
I can feel you moving over there
You've been playing with the seam
In your worn out underwear

My lips are raw as hell
From biting on them just to stay awake
It's not like I'm gonna need them
You won't be around
To see them bleed and break

CHORUS:
All...all that I do
Comes back to you
So I'll just think about you til there's nothing new in my head
All...all I can do
Is try not to screw this up again
And just be friends
I'd rather be dead

I drove out of East Atlanta
With a headache the size of my car
I called to say that I was okay
Cuz i know how you are
I'm like a movie without an ending
You know I've got nowhere to go
And it makes me wanna throw up
To see you wanna give up
More than you'll ever know

BRIDGE
Everything's supposed to have a happy ending
But the record keeps spinning and the needle keeps bending
Like the road I'm driving to the bridge that has no end
I wanna take back everything that
I've broken But the bridges behind me are burning and smoking
I guess this is the end

Friday, March 14, 2008

First post of mine

March 13, Thurs - I am still in the office, waiting for 7pm, today is like usual, normal working day, but it is less hectic. Still have many works to do, but don't feel like working at all.
Its all cuz of yesterday. Yesterday I planned to go back on time, but my leader told my teammates and me that our manager is questioning our workloads as sometimes we are able to go back around on time or around 5pm. Many of my colleagues from different teams mostly go back around 7 or 8pm. So she is accusing us of not having enough job to do and others are over workload.. I just wanna say WTF, this is call effienciency ok?Usually I eat breakfast and lunch in front of my monitor and never loitering around or gossiping during work hours, unlike others who took 1/2 hour for breakfast, 1 hour for lunch, and spend time chatting before continuing their job, then of course they will need to go back later than me.
This is so unfair.
One thing I don't like about this company is the manager and also the workload, all of us are overloaded, and now I know why everyone doesn't want to join my company, and thank god that I only have 11 months to go .. yeeeehaaaa